I've been appraised

I am worth $2,119,478
and rising...

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A new superhero is emerging, one unlike any ever seen before. Prepare for Sandy Sexauer, AKA Dark Venom.

Capricorns

What is it with the capricorn baby? They never smile, its not crying or crying. Those seem to be the only choice. I spent all day trying to get them to smile but woo wee, I hope I never have a cap. To bed with me.

Father's Day

Its Daddy's day, yay! Dad is 2,600 miles away and while a week ago he didn't have $2,000 for a new computer for me. He does have $1,200 for a new camera for him. Love having a Aires father. Anyway, lots to do and only one day to do it, so till next post, if you have weed smoke it, if your generous share with me.

What are we not being told?

In some parts of the world days are getting longer, in other parts nights are getting longer. Is the earth's rotation slowing? The current calendar is based on a falsified religion, do any catholics know when jesus was really born? How about any of the apostles for that matter? Daylight savings, time zones, the calendar, have they all been designed to dupe us? Enlightenment is coming, but for how many of us? Must we continue to pay the price of pain and suffering for basic needs like food, water and shelter? Destiny is in our hands, the people of earth. Will we stand and unite, or will we give up our freedom for Prime time television and fancy toys?

Ask and you shall recieve

The lord has answered my prayers, actually he answered them immediately it just sometimes takes awhile for things to manifest on earth. I HAVE A JOB! Woohoo. Now I have some where to place my energy and get this party started. Still in training, I'm out on my own come monday, can't wait because I'm sure I will be excellent at this job.

Sitting, Waiting, Wishing

How appropriate the title of that song is. I sit here after a run that drains the life from me. I acheived the 10 minute mile last week, hooray for me, but running at 6 miles an hour is insane. Sometimes I feel like my heart is going to explode or my lungs are going to collapse. All this for a girl, a girl who can't even kiss me with passion. I get love poured through a middle school filter. Pathetic pecks and cuddling. All I ask for is pleasure, all I get is pain. I'm a heavy guy, but even after losing 50lbs. for her still nothing. I endure all this, and I find myself questioning why? What major changes is she enduring, what pain does she go through for my love? I am undeserving of her? What makes her deserving of all my sacrafice? I have given up my family, my life, and am changing my self all for her and she can't bring herself to have sex? She is the one saying I'm inadequate, I have to kill myself on a treadmill. All I ask for is pleasure. What the fuck is the deal?

Now I have no weed, withdrawal being complete my mind is overflowed with darkness. Horrible thoughts fill my mind, when will this pain come to an end?